will you marry me?

 would you believe this? u've known this person for at least a week a long and he then came up with the proposal?isnt that spooky. i dont believe in love at first sight let alone love at first nite..hehe..that's what happened in life. i'm trying to find a descent explanation for this proposal. i need to use all the Wh questions..pening eden..xmasuk akal.What?why?oh no..tu la manusia,when you dint get love, you are whining for it..when you've got it,you whine again.This time in disbelief..Whining without fail..huh!

i'm a bit ting tong..up side down..oh my..i need time to think properly..whether to accept or reject.It is a sudden proposal..kang aku kene tipu..aish..parah...i dont know what to say..blur and empty..is this a trap?haish..sigh again..what should i do..

helloooo..

hai..its not too late to wish myself happy new year...its been a long pause..been very busy..as life takes me to the fullest, i find blogging as my part time only.just when i really bored, then i need to blog.no one is reading so its like my diary..its not private enough cause it on the line..so shall i call it as second diary..haha...

my year has started excellently...too busy to even take care of myself..its like dah tengah tahun,padahal baru je bulan 2..my fren's wedding is approaching, and guess what?i am going to be the bridesmaid...funny lah..need to kurus lah gitu..

azam tahun baru?hmmm...still having the same azam as last two years..its a secret..not gonna tell..but its about life..mencari..still in the dark..aishhh..a woman without a date..nevermind just EAT, PRAY and LOVE...talking about eat..rase nak mkn brushetta, macarons, sheperd pie..opps...mcm2 lagi..damn..gemuk2

looks or brain?

I wonder which of these apply to your life? Male hunters?well,its hard to define.As for me my criteria goes like this:

• Looks
• Brain
• Wealth
• family
• ethics in life

See, looks is on top of my list.its not that i'm being picky,it just matter the most to me. Men also tend to choose their spouse(girl)based on the looks.it is obvious. To me, the guy had taught me to judge based on looks.They themselves will never take a glance at a girl who looks like this...

as i observed the men around me,this is what i found out. A guy will choose a curvylicious gal to be his date.So what about us? The not so pretty one?i dont understand them.i'll never do.mybe there are guys who put the look way under their list.of course i'll be the one to line up for him,if he's still available..aha..

patut la i still remain as a girl without a date..hehe..but i like my single life

twilight fever

i am bored, no thing to do..my life back then was topsy turvy but i managed to fix it.yeay..skang musim durian..yummy..i like to eat durian..pelik jugak when my mum once said jgn minum coke and then mkn durian,nnt ko  mati..hahaha..i laughed my heart out at that statement.My father rolled his eyes in disbelief....mcm2 pantang larang  org tua..at last i obeyed her and left the durian behind.

jom ckap sal twilight eclipse..talking about this.hmm..its fang-tastic..muhaha..jeles tol kat org2 yg dh dpat tgk..naseb i've read the novel..best..lg fun drp movie.it requires your own imagination to visualise it..hehe..terberangan bila baca tu.so,bila tgk preview kat you tube,dh tahu what will happen next.hehe..happening jgk..gotta wait for the dvd then..nk g KL dh tade hrapan.you wish la..pmr is around the corneer so i have to stay put here..lame..sigh

bersyukurlah

i went to hospital to accompany my ayah to his check up..and its touched my heart, deep down. I sat silently at the edge of the sopd clinic, watching closely at my father.He was a bit sleepy and bored..mana taknya,he had to wait for two hours just to get his check ups result.And what really touched my heart is that when i looked at the people around me, it made me thinking.ramainya org sakit, kebanyakannya org2 tua..pakcik makcik. I pitied them for having that life,mostly too old to walk and needed to sit on the wheelchair.i felt like crying. ramainya org xbernasib baek dlm dunia ni..i felt like helping them all. being a filial daughter, i've tried my best to take care of my dad.i love my dad, my mum and my siblings.they are my everything...as a matter of fact,as we got older,we tend to get sick.So people,pls take care of your health...i am scared to be in the hospital..huhuhu..i love the fact that my father's operation is scheduled end of this month.what a relief. so whatever life takes me, i am grateful..hope the pembedahan berjalan lancar and ayah akan sihat kembali...xsanggup dah tgk ayah wearing that urine bag..

i find it hard to trust people around me.i lost my way..i cannot cry..i 'm forced to fake a smile, a laugh.now what is left in me is what i pretend to be..with these things i'll never say,i'm trying to figure out this life..it's cruel and wicked. why is everything so confusing. everytime i cried, i need to dry my tears alone.

You're the only one I wish I could forget,the only one I love to not forgive.There are times when I hate you,cause I can't erase, the times that you hurt me and put tears on my face. And even now while I hate you, it pains me to say that I wanna be without you and I don't wanna love you in no kinda way...

Very-very painful to take. I couldnt stand overly sensitive kind of people..self centred and sluggish! it was annoying and nauseating.urghhhhh!!!!!i've been very patient when it comes to this matter. But i do not know, up to certain extent,maybe i will just explode with dissatisfaction. i'm hoping for my patience to stay with me all the time. i dont want to make it worst.